A Timeless Read

The biggest takeaway I’ve received since the release of who will protect me? is the infinity of its foundation and what it represents. This book is about healing and being in recovery, those points are timeless. After production, I would sit idle in the months to come for I couldn’t meet the means to pay for post. Within that timeframe, more was discovered: more lessons learned and more findings to be shared. After post-production, I would work diligently to get the book published and more ideas for the book’s awareness would be revealed. After going the route of self-publishing, I thought the work was done. But, soon, I would discover myself reliving moments in time already illustrated on the pages, moments I thought I had already addressed and recovered from. I had this false narrative I shouldn’t be relearning about topics I already addressed in the book; I’m the one who addressed them! I shouldn’t still be dealing with racist-sexist objectification from men or falling into the traps of unrequited love when I had declared loving as a willful act. I shouldn’t still be dealing with recurring ego deaths or caring how others perceive me. And I damned sure shouldn’t still be putting up with the dismissiveness of those unwilling to listen to the words I have to say. But as this book went through its stages from conception to birth, I would find myself reliving all of these experiences I had told myself I should have outgrown. And, so, I would revisit specific pieces in my book to balance the scales. I would use my book as a guide towards an everlasting recovery. Some moments I would have to reread jezebel and witness myself reliving the question “how will you know if you keep giving it away?” Other days, I would ask myself “what was that one meditative exercise I had written down for obscured visions of reality?” As I experienced new people and new environments, I found myself expanding and becoming more open to the willingness to learn; continuous knowledge would be retained and the understanding of the Holy Spirit would continue to work through me.

Image by Erica Génécé, poem by Tayllor Johnson

Everyday we should strive for joy, sweetness and hope. Everyday should be an active choice to rediscover solace and freedom. But every is not the same. People will disappoint you, the economy will crash, sales will slow down, the opportunity will fall through and someone will look at you when you’re tired and tell you to smile. Accepting the tides are not constant is how you find solace in the present. It’s okay if you had to revisit the pages in this book. The intentions of this book have expanded since the seasonal themes of Luxy Haus Magazine. This fashion book is not based on Spring Summer 2024 or cultural trends only meant to last right now. This is a timeless read, one that will be sitting on your coffee table or your bookshelf waiting for your return.