turning myself on

On Thursday, I throwback on how I threw it back: how the currents dancing within my womb would create a tune that begged for self-exploration. So, I’d redirect my focus on the rhythms of my own song in an attempt to journey through the feeling of realizing the one who was with me was actually on the other side of the room. After an elongated series of promiscuity and sexual casualty, I took moral inventory on my willingness to develop chemical bonds with masculine energy I had not discerned were safe. The instant gratification of erotic power unleashed left me empty simply because there was misalignment in the exchange of participating spirits. And, so I decided to practice sexual abstinence and retention. This exploration of resistance was an intensive somatic process in order to confront the stimulation in my own body, to control and preserve it.

In the poem, feel good, I ask the audience: what you want when it don’t feel? When we spend our lives actively people-pleasing to self-soothe, playing savior roles in other people’s lives (codependency) and shaming self-intimacy, we play an active role in the demonization of sexual liberation, subjecting ourselves to confinement. Work at the sacral chakra invites us to listen to our own wisdom and trust what she tells us. She grants us the opportunity to be empowered by eroticism; to birth new ideas, practice discernment and express our feelings creatively. Our willingness to explore what we feel allows us to participate in a purpose that shifts the world.

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Here are some things I like to do for sacral chakra healing:

🍑 Drink Chai tea

🍑 Meditate with yoni eggs (mahogany obsidian)

🍑 Wear silk dresses and red lipstick around the house

🍑 Spray dopamine before a self-intimacy ritual