i gotta big ego

On Thursday, I recall that experience I could’ve prevented, the actions I could’ve taken and the decision I could’ve made. As I recall my obsession with controlling narratives, I’d realize it ain’t my heart, it’s my ego. With a stellium in Leo, I take accountability for having “Main Character Syndrome.” I become too proud when I don’t get what I want, despite my efforts of persuasion, and resort to insecurity; I would internalize the behaviors and actions of others when I wasn’t affirmed or validated. This harsh truth about myself allowed me to comfort the lioness who resides in my spirit. Extensions of grace through the active prayer of serenity allowed me to not take things personally and make everything about me.

Judgment and arrogance towards those around us are merely projections of how we judge and perceive our own character. Annoyance and anger are simply by-products of subconscious feelings of shame, embarrassment and humiliation. These subconscious feelings lead us to internalize external perceptions of our own image and an addiction to seeking outside validation for our own self-acceptance. But what we experience isn't a heartache, it’s just stomach pain. I like to call pride. Pride drives us to prove a point and overtly explain our perspective, to get our lick back and hope for karma. These envious ideologies enable us to ignore the core subconscious feelings related to our ego, which needs comfort too. In an attempt to embrace our vulnerabilities and triggers, we develop the courage to let go of what we cannot control and take control of the things we can.

Here are some things I like to do for solar plexus healing:

🦁 Set aside time to pray for self-forgiveness (serenity prayer)

🦁 Burn Frankincense when seeking motivation

🦁Corepower yoga

🦁 Mist myself with “mother king” when agitated

Amanda Moore-KarimJuly 18, 2024solar plexus healing, ego self, prideComment